I haven’t posted since last year *hides face* but just as the title says it’s not over! This will not be a new year new me type of post because I’m sure all of us have seen enough of that but I guess you can see this as a reflective one. Last year I loved and lost, frozen in my fear and pushed through my insecurities, laughed, cried, messed up, helped others, experienced new things, traveled and fell asleep under the sunshine. All in all it was great. Some parts I would’ve loved to skip over but that wouldn’t be a life to the full now, would it?
Change is something that happens consistently but I’m the type of person that likes to know what’s going to happen next, even if it’s good or bad, I don’t really mind as long as I know what’s going to happen. That’s how I view butterflies. Animals that are always changing. Butterflies go through a dramatic change from chunky ugly caterpillars that may get eaten by a bird to beautiful colorful flying creatures. They don’t know if they’ll make it to the butterfly stage of their life but they keep going with the faith that they will. The same way I need to simply trust the best things will happen.
“‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,’ declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55 : 8 – 9
Last year was one that really pushed my faith in terms of changing my heart to having a optimistic outlook to whatever the situation. In the beginning of 2015, my heart finally changed and I truly forgave someone who I had spent years being angry towards. I did not want to forgive but looking at how much Christ forgave and loved me, I eventually just gave it up. It felt like a giant weight coming off my shoulders which was something I never thought would happen. I messed up while trying to co – lead a Bible discussion group, not being able to help anyone to become a christian except for months later and the end of a relationship. These are some things that I wanted to get angry at God and ask him why why why why? It’s not fair, I don’t like it. Why does this person get to do this and do that and I have to go through pain. Maybe the grass is greener on the other side…
But as the earlier verse said, God’s ways are not my ways and his thoughts are not my thoughts so I can’t even begin to imagine all the things that he’s doing for my good and all in His timing. In Jeremiah 29 : 11, it says that God has a plan to prosper and not harm to give me a hope and a future. That’s a promise that God gave specifically to me and to you as well! Right now I may not completely see God’s plan for me life or what He wants for me to do but I can trust in Him that whatever comes next despite the troubles that come my way. I can’t keep looking at someone else’s life thinking it’s better than mine because many things can be happening behind a picture that I don’t even know of. A scripture that’s helping me to hold on to this is Psalms 16 : 5 -6,
“Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places, surely I have a delightful inheritance.”
I love that psalm because it just echoes that things I got through is for a reason which will take me to a delightful inheritance! That inheritance is heaven and nothing on earth will compare to it!
I plan on writing more on here to keep it updated with my life and hopefully help others put that may be going through the same things.